If I sit here and let myself feel sorry for you again, I'll never forgive
myself. You think that all of your pain and misfortunes are my
fault . . . you couldn't be further from the truth.
It's true that you will always hold a special place in my heart, but it's
time for me to let you go and move on. I can't protect you forever,
and it's time I tended and looked after myself for a change.
Didn't you always say "Look out for number one"?
You don't understand now, but I hope you will one day. You've got
to realize that in order for you to move on, you must let go of your
anger and your hatred. This, like all things, takes time.
You may see this as my abandonment, but I honestly can no longer feel
responsible for you. I've housed this guilt and remorse inside
my heart for so long now that I feel that I cannot breathe.
I am not your keeper any more.
Please understand that you still hold a special place in my heart,
and in some of my fondest memories. I think of you often, and pray
that you are doing better. I also pray that you will one day
forgive me, and try to move on past all of this.
No matter how much you despise him, understand that he in no way takes
your place in my heart. I felt that it was time to move on, and
found happiness in him.
I wish you luck and love, but most all, I wish you peace. Peace
to quiet your warring soul, and to quiet your tired mind and weary body.
You will remain in my thoughts and prayers, but I shall no longer dwell
on the past, or us. What's done is done, and my time in your
life is finished.
Keep love in your heart, for you will always be, my Adonis.