© Nicki Faulk / Www.Nitallica.Org

"Surf and Thoughts - I"

Having this time alone has made me realize that moving on is going to be harder than I thought.  I refused to believe that I had structured so many of my feelings, dreams, and fears around you.

That night, when you pushed me away, you cut me more deeply in that one small moment than you have in the past two years.  Have you no heart?  Of what are you so afraid?  Are your feelings so shocking to you that you must hide them from the eyes of the world?  Or from me?

I am the one who has suffered for your Love, endured for your kisses, and would do it all again if only you'd ask.  Perhaps, in time, you will look back and see the loss of what was once a truly beautiful and wonderous Love.

And perhaps, in time, I will forgive you, as well as myself.